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Bright Flower

2010-09-06T21:51:00.003-10:00

I like their song...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Nvejmuu5ic

Koe ni dashite tsutaeru one love
(one love I relay with my voice)
Konna watashini ni saita flower
(a flower that blooms for one such as me)
Wanna see your smile
and I'll sing for you

Open Beta has arrived!

2010-09-03T00:17:00.008-10:00

Yes! After failing multiple times signing up for the closed beta (both NA and JP ones mind you), a chance at open beta has arrived! I guess it was 2 years or so? that I semi-retired from FFXI, hearing that the Online 14 was coming out 'soon'. Apparently it wasn't soon enough and I had immersed myself in another F2P (free to play) game called Perfect World International. Unlike FFXI where gil buying was *gasp* a sin, these F2P games have cash shops so its 1) EXTREMELY convenient if you have the money to buy these bonus items, and 2)If you know how to use the market and merchant, its actually possible to make a CRAP load of coins. I had been cash shopping at first but my friends showed me how wonderful (and free) merchanting was. Needless to say I've started that method too. Compared to my FFXI times, I am hoping my (still novice) merchant skills I've learned from PWI will help me in FFXIV. I remember how these crafters were doing so well in sales and boy was I envious of them!

Anyways, as most beta testers have experienced for themselves, as have I, the download time is hell. I understand FFXIV has been long awaited but WTF? O_O The torrent (last 4 gigs) shows a whopping 3 days time of DL while the direct upload shows 10+hrs atm. I actually had to take down my windows firewall to speed it up and its still a good 10hrs. WOW to the pple who actually are playing the game at this very moment. You guys are super lucky. I shall probably have to, and most likely will leave my main PC online to finish this DL process and hope that the PC itself doesnt catch on fire like it did this afternoon.

I turned on the PC when I came home from work today and *sniff sniff* wouldn't you know it, something smells like its burning... I look to my left and lo and behold I see a tiny flame burning happily INSIDE. The connector to the diskdrive has caught on fire! LUCKILY. I always keep my PC fully open on the side since its a screw on type, and with half my fan broken I cant afford to let air boil inside. Its scary to imagine if I had it screwed on shut.... Thankfully the damage is minimal with a soft charred spot on the disk drive and the next door cable still seems alive.... My guess is that some dust must have sparked and caught on fire??? I still need to get a replacement for this before the official FFXIV game gets mailed to me. =/ Countdown to my DL currently @ 10:49:xx hrs, oh boy.

End of the Mission

2007-11-30T20:55:00.000-10:00

Well at last several days ago I was able to clear the Aht urghan mission. For this mission I've actually had about 7? last boss fights, 2 for me and the other 5 for a friend. Both were close calls but I guess we had some luck during my own run and it was just all out smoother.

During my friends run PLD/RNG/RDM/BLM/BLM/BRD. Had some trouble with the BLU fight since we tried the stun method. So many close calls, one shots, and excess time on the BLU. The end fight we had only 17 min. on Alexander, and won with say... about 15 sec left with the BLM using a vile elixir+1, and 2 nukes. It wasnt what you would call the smoothest fight but it was downright exciting, especially in that last 15 secs

My own run went rather smoothly on the other hand with PLD/BLU/WAR/WHM/BLM/RDM. I was the PLD but it felt rather funny since I had not been on it for about nearly a year. My PLD gear was all in sandy, and I was lucky enough that I hadnt muled the important ones. The first run had some bad luck when the BLU one shoted the WAR and PLD(me) continuously. So the WHM used Repose(?), slept him and we all warped out. Next fight went smooth. I cant say how much our BLU's stun, the BLM's stun, and especially the WHM's Repose helped us out. I'll have to try out Repose myself next time.
So the BLU fight is past and we go on to Mr. Alex. Got rid of that first stage fast enough and the last stage starts. Everything goes smooth and I'm rather surprised at how much hate I am able to keep, considering I get hit alot (regardless of my self curing) and the BLM is nuking alot. Alex spared us alot of his AoE's I think, tho I'm not quite certain due to my filters. Most of the decreasing HP was either me(pld), BLU, or the BLM.

Sanction, refresh, the parade gorget, and that convert-dmg-into-mp earring also did big time on my MP, which almost never ran out. (LoLElvaanMP) Overall went smooth but again we had like only 5min. till time ran out. Why so little time left when it went so smooth? This was due to the BLM dying once and freezing upon reraise. So he was like stuck there dead unable to RR, and finally had to restart his PC, this which took about a whole 10min. The BLM was the main DD next to the BLU, so about 10 min. passed where all we did were just try to stay alive while the others hacked away miniscule HP from Alex. Overall it was fun but after doing it 7 times or so it seemed alot of luck played into this. >.<;

Whats goin on in Vana

2007-11-15T14:16:00.001-10:00

'Piss-me-off-less', was actually the title of this RDM pic lol. I hate being RDM, but their costumes are sooo drawable its nice. And they both qualify for melee and magic poses, it gives the artist a wider range of imagination for their poses.^^ I think I like the sword and shield concept which is also available for PLDs but they seem to have a more 'bulky' image so I prefer the sleek RDM over PLD if I had a choice to draw. (heh maybe its my seeker loving nature >.>;;) I still havent drawn alot but I was angry at the time of these drawings so anger helped a TON. Very interesting.

Its pretty much still hot in Hawaii, and Im missing the JP coldness. School will be starting again next spring year so still pondering if I should wait or just register now. I want to earn some money for a PC but I know that I'd have to severely limit either school or work to do this. Currently working part time at a tour company (yesh its jp!) which is, quite boring, and quite stressfull, but I've learned to do away the customers with a big smile. Hurray, I think that I get that smile from my mom lol... This is about 4 times a week so that leaves a limited time for all other things >.< Naturally being the money hungry slob that I am, I've applied for another job as a local flight stewardess, if possible to replace my current tour company. Being on airplanes at least twice a year since I was a baby, I think I know what to expect to a degree. Then again its probably only the tip of the iceberg...

So much change will be going in these couple of months for me :/ Half of me is kind of rushing myself. My B-day just passed and in a few good years I'll have a '3' in the first digit of my age D: (oh noes!) So by then I want a decent (hopefully full time) job that has the needed benefits of retirement and all that shit lol at least before I end up being age 30 leeching on my parents with a part time job still then. Well... unless I get picked up by a rich little guy as a bride. Um... yeah...*cough* sry guys, >.> ask most girls and theyll say so too, even if it IS a joke lol.

This.Layout.Is.Sexy.

2007-11-15T00:32:00.000-10:00

Thank you, Jordan! <3 Best layout ever award to Existence Infinito Productions!

Eh, I'm just joking you. I'm just writing this post for..my own egotistical reasons. /sigh. V.V;;

Enjoy the layout.

Decepticon ring

2007-08-03T17:46:00.000-10:00

"Art Clay Silver 650 Slow dry" for the silver. I beleive you can probably buy this on ebay sometimes, or if not do a search on the net for any online retailers. This turns into 99% silver after you bake it so its not that cheap. The single pouch in the pic cost about 40-55$ but I cant remember for sure, since I bought it in Japan a few years ago. They sell as single clays and also as make-it-yourself kits. I bought the kit (about 75$) cause it came with all the neccesary tools and manuals.

The 'former' design I had in mind. It wasnt long before I found out the clay was a bit hard to mold. It dries quickly, gets sticky easily with a small dab of water, and sticks all over the place. Good thing about it is as long as you dont bake it, you can turn it back into soft clay with some water. (I later used one that was dry and hard for a year, ziplocked it with water, and was ready to use after 2-3 days again)

The ones with straight lines, like the insignia, I rolled flat and cut the shapes out like a cookie cutter. The curvy ones were balled up into a near shape and carved/shaved out.

Wings, cut out and carved out on the inside. It dries fast so you can carve it out in about 30 or so minutes. I think I dried the clay about 1 day before I started carving any of them just to be on the safe side. It can crack and break if you drop it from high but its still rock hard when you carve them.

Front part of the ring put together. Its still looks and feels gritty since its not smoothed out.

Back 'ring' was done about 1.5 years after the front part insignia part was made. I was very busy, also didnt have the environment to play around with clay. The front part didnt turn out as I imagined so I at least wanted to get the best environment I could for the rest of the piece. The band here is not smoothed out yet.

After you bake it, it turns white. You can see if you compare with the previous pic. I put it over a normal oven fire first to dry the ring of any moisture lest it crack under higher heat later. Then used the little gas burners and heated it till it got all red hot, for about 5+ min. If you under heat it, it will most likly get brittle and break later on due to the silver not solidifying inside.

Scrape off the white layer (crystallized silver) with those bristly metal brushes and you get the melted silver underneath. Drop it lightly and we can see if its solid, it makes that metal sound.

I failed to take a pic but there was a process where you dip the ring in this liquid for a few minutes to give it the black rusty look. (its the orange tube in the pic) The surface of the whole ring turns into a blackish, rusty, oily metalic color...

After you get the black rusty oily ugly color, here comes the silver polish. You basically wipe the whole ring with it to give it the silvery shine. The black gritty color will stay in the deep crevices to give it the whole 'heavy silver accessory' look. If you have a solid ring you probably dont need to wipe as much since there arent as much hard to reach places. For this one I basicly 'washed' the whole thing with silver polish, wiping it everywhere cause there were so many curves and cracks. It still took around 1hr of wiping though, to get the color right.

The final piece. The curvy things in the front didnt turn out exactly as planned but oh well... Decepticon insignia, and wings represent seeker wings. The band in the back are suppose to look like metal wall like things that gradually lead up to 'rubble' behind both wings (can anyone say 'war'?). I really wish the curvy things turned out better but it was my first time and I wasnt use to carving them out. By the time it was ready to bake, I got the hang of it but it was way to late to do over. If I ever do get a hold of more clay in the future, it would be fun to make another one hopefully of better design. At the moment still wondering if I should wear it or give it away or something :p hee

Back to Hawaii

2007-07-09T08:29:00.001-10:00

....Bwaaa... I hate it there... -.- nothing exciting.
Couple years living in Japan and im back off to hawaii (hometown) with... 2 suitcases ; ; just 2. 6 huge bags of clothes went to the garbage as well as 6 big boxes filled with MIB TF collections to a friend...either that or they get thrown away too. Tho I did get 3 boxes shiped seamail, (my parents dont know!! :D lol) its helluva amount to throw away D;

I do hate it when bad things come crashing down on you all at once but currently too much stress on my parents and some other health issues left me no choice. (very)Surprisingly I think I got some stress from online gaming (pple interactions) and it hasnt left me in such a good health myself too. The past few months have been going soooo downhill, it was funny cause of the amount of cigs I would smoke. A box use to last me 3 days, then it turned to 1.5 o_o;; I used to never get stressed out but I guess living alone does weird things to you :o I should have noticed earlier but sometimes mental frustration makes you near blind. Depression. Already got a doctors appointment and I really hope medication will do me well.

I wont be getting net connection any time soon so its probably a good time to relax, seriously get things settled. ...n then find a new job in hawaii ew ><>.> for games.. >.>;;... like macros lol. I'm looking forward to pressing ONE button ONCE and swapping my whole equip set... not 2-3 and waste 5 secs and get hit in the process and die ; ; ...and I need to get my head off online games again >.>; buuut...I guess I cant help it cause theres just some things that worry me, like the game schedules. ><>.> n Daddy can recover from stroke. Dumb dad gone working again when he needs to rest -.-; ah well...
I pray theres nothing too bad that will happen when I go back FFXI. Long absence = change = change is scary ; ; God im a nerd >_>

Elvaan RDM

2007-03-02T08:09:00.000-10:00

I swear the female in the RDM AF have it that short >.>

RDM AF with Genbu sheild, only thing thats actually different is I added high heels to the boots.

Now if only I could get a close up shot of how Hauby looks like I'd want to draw more pics with action :x My own elvaan (male) is too big and most of his body parts dont show close up...at least on PS2. The neck and shoulder areas seem a bit complicating so dont wanna mess those parts up. I should try to nab pple to pose their armour for me >.>

Too much FFXI, so little time drawing. Seriously need to get back to my art roots. Will draw for Gil!! LoLz =p

...what to draw next...

The NA and the JP

2007-02-04T16:58:00.000-10:00

Things I find in FF that are just weirdly amusing in FF is their behavior. :)
(I consider myself both JP and NA cause I speak both)
For a long time, I'd usually choose JP over NA but my recent joining in a new LS has probably changed that idea completly. (NA will include any non-JP below, Im just rounding it up)

I admit all races can have a jerk or two...or three ...or a dozen >.> But overall NA seem ALOT more friendler. In terms of online manners, I think I'd side with the JP on that, from an overall point of view that is. I'm not saying this applies to all cause the NA friends I have, I know to be really nice pple, great to joke around with, fun to be with, easygoing, and makes FFXI worthwhile. But when lvling in the dunes, the sore thumb just sticks out bad whether it be all NA, all JP, all something else(>.>?), or a mix.
In a normal pt I find it easier to stick with the JP on average, more so cause their easier to talk to and I can relate a bit more to their 'humour' and their joking around. In my opinion I think this is possible because its a short time meet, nothing too complicated, thus easy to make friends.

The tables kind of turn when your in a LS. Probably because the society is different. I have both NA, JP, and now a mixed LS and I find it much more relaxing to associate with the NA. Now, I said that society probably has alot to with this because in Japan, the social order is rather strict compared to the U.S. Sometimes its good, sometimes its bad, sometimes its just suffocating. A good easy example would be school. I myself graduated from a U.S. school and when your making friends and having a good time, age doesnt really matter. Of course, etiquette comes in from time to time but thats normal, respect your elders etc. But if your in a school in Japan, expect yourself to be in a Indian cast system. Seriously. Anyone who is older than you, anyone who has more experience than you in a certain field, you speak to them like your speaking to a demi-God. (but in return the reputation of the younger peeps will sometimes affect those of the elders. Similar to a company) Most of the time it will just stay that way however long you know them. Rarely will you be able to speak to them as you can speak to others of the same age.

This is mostly the reason I find myself easier to associate with the NA when in a LS. It just takes double, triple the time it does to be 'accepted' by JP, than it will with an NA, in a LS (ala a mini society). The JP shell I reside in now, I've been in it for about a year and a half. I love it, its fun, but it took well over half a year for me to feel 'at home' there. 'At home' I mean by being able to use the terms like 'hihi!' 'can I...' 'could you...' or just poke them with a sharp stick for fun, instead of the earlier terms I used like 'Hello' 'May I...' 'Would you...'. The NA shell on the other hand took about 1-2 months, maybe not 2 but just to get used to the pple and the air of the LS. Mostly because I didnt really see a need to talk to pple like I'm talking to the president of a company.

The same can be applied to the recent mixed LS I have joined. I have to admit its way easier for me to talk to the NA members at this time because I feel like I'm talking to a long time FFXI player and not a CEO of a company. I assume its going to take me about a year maybe more to be 'accepted' by the JP members in this LS, at least enough for me to be able to joke around and actually get a responce. I still have a long ways till I can ease out the the polite language usage. Of course, I've gotten advice as to 'try to talk more in japanese', but if I dont get a responce, its a bit hard and there really isnt much thats possible. So here again I find myself going back and talking english. I realize its not exactly the best way to start out, because of the fact I can speak japanese, they dont think too highly of it if I use too much english (the JP side that is). Right now it feels like a group of new friends(NA) and employers(JP) I guess my goal right now is to be able to ease up in half a year with the JP members here. :)

...Sometimes >.>

2006-12-21T23:59:00.000-10:00

...Just sometimes >.> I wonder what kind of attitudes I would have gotten if I had chosen a female (non taru) character >_>;
Of course, the reasons why I chose a male elvaan is because one, they have nice faces...
>.>
....<.< (though I wish i chose a diff. face type, the long haired bishi's) I, like many others, like looking at pretty faces of the opposite gender :p And two, its interesting to see how guys act when they think no girls are watching them lol. /peeps hee ^^

Recently I wish I had the long black haired Elvaan :O

they uh... look more good >.>

too many freaking mules...

Salvage

2006-12-19T20:53:00.000-10:00

Bhaflau Salvage: My PS2 froze and I DCed on the 3rd floor >.> And logged in 1min before it kicked us out. No drops but it was interesting to see what to expect. Personally I think it seems wiser to kill all the mobs on the first floor. Which was the way I was thinking of going, but one person in the alliance (was their second run) advised us to just skip the half of it. We didnt argue since it was still our first run (for most of us including me).
Turns out it wasnt the best of paths, most of the melee werent ready for the trolls and wamoora, gear, hp, & ability wise on the second floor. We didnt wipe but it got several of us killed when it probably shouldnt have. Wish I had windows for easy screenshots...
I dont mind the spending of assault points but the drops....seems to be pretty low. And then you have to gather 3 base equipment ....with really low drop rates >.> and get a stack of say...O.ingot ...which in the AH I dont see a long history.... I wonder which is harder, getting 2 diff. complete sets of these new armours or upgrading your relic weapon....

1 year and 2months

2006-12-18T00:31:00.000-10:00

After waiting several months I make my first entry other than a test. Whoo hoo... Nothing really exciting to write, but hopefully I can make this my ffxi main blog...or start to....or just make it a ranting diary >.>;;
Looking back.....
1 year and 2months. Didnt actually think I'd make it past a year, couldnt really imagine myself where I am now.

2001: If only my dorm and FFXI back then, when the service started several years ago were compatible
--Customer service: "I'm afriad some dorms do now allow...."insert definition for multi player stuff cause of security reasons"
--Me: ".......I see" D:
Sep2005~ Feb2006: I probably raced through the Zilart and Promy missions, just to get my frustration out of not being able to play for the past 4 several years. Basically shouting my lungs out throughout Jeuno, the Zilart, Promy, and Sandy missions were completed by 2006 Feb. Not bad considering a f**king noob still. Much of my motivation to lvl, surprisingly came to asshole-ish peeps (NA's) who liked to diss noobs outright....Yakoo, etc.. And no I dont hold back names unless I have an obligation to do so for other pple involved or owe them that much. Most gear were either borrowed or gimped at this time, but didnt really care since it was whm >.> Much of the farmings went to buying the needed meds for the missions. I guess not many pple cared for whm gear as long as I kept my cures and haste and enfeebs going.

I had to keep on reminding myself that, lest I get envious and depressed of what some other pple had >.> Im only human. Now recently in lower lvl parties, I've see some with fabulous gear (ala pple of a famous odin HNM) and yet they play.....well not-so faboo.(though it probably differs on the individual) Lvl40s Garlaige was I think my last one. War with alllll this +1 +HQQQQQ gear, you would think they would know how to swap gears. If you got the best att+++++ gear you can afford at your lvl then you most likely gonna get hate for a while after your WS. Spare the mages some MP and switch your -100 EVA gear to at least a +1 EVA will ya...and voke when the tank keeps on getting hit yo? (seriously. I think I heard the gears crying...)
Hopefully I can find some interesting blogs to link to if I can find any fellow FF-ers :p